My Experience With Bullying in the 60’s and 70’s

I thought so many things on July 27th, as I sat down to write this blog post…

Yes! I took a (brief) detour while writing it! Well…I had a lot of thoughts to process. 😉 Lol

First of all, what I have to say in this post is all genuine; as I have no reason at all to lie about any of it. All true to life. Believe me….I sure wish it wasn’t! (I’ll also, add, I don’t want any pity…Nuff said)!

The MOST important perspective of my complex, inner, ramblings this morning was that my son thrived as an adult (without) any mental damage from bullying. Thank The Good Lord! =) That was my greatest fear! He was bullied briefly on the school bus; however, my son didn’t have room for bullying in his young school days/throughout his life; and still doesn’t! =)

The main point for this post is to provide some experienced facts about myself just so you can know and understand me a little better (as a person just trying, STILL… to find my way in this UGLY world).

But first, let me take a trip down (memory lane)…from VERY EARLY in life. 🙁

Unfortunately, I DON’T remember my early days in school (as happy). There was a particular incident that took place that snowballed ……into what ???! 😮

As I analyze my thoughts to try and remember the occurrence that started it all; my mind goes back to what (should have been) a favorable learning experience and a happy occasion.

I was excited about dance class. I’m not quite sure what grade we were in. 1st or 2nd grade?? I also am not sure exactly (what kind of dance class) it was. Although, I do remember wearing leotards; black ones. At least, that’s what they were called back then. LOL

I bet you can’t guess what took place?? Hmm, well; maybe you can, I don’t know.

This (little girl) left a big puddle in the gym. UGH!! 😮

Please, let me explain…

I remember… (not too far) into the class, I realized I had to go to the restroom.

Ahh, well, alrighty…now you know. The cats out of the bag; or should I say BLADDER! 😮

lol

I tried very hard to let that teacher know of my predicament many, many times, with a wave and a little dance of my own. But did she listen? This woman wasn’t giving me any relief ANYTIME SOON!

NADA! NO! SHE DID NOT LET ME GO!

Hello!! Was she plotting my (unlucky) future?? lmao!

The next thing I remember was the warm, wet feeling trickling down my legs that made me look down at the ever increasing puddle on the floor. It was only then that I actually realized what I’d done.

I know, gross, but keeping it real!

Well, that dance teacher was very much in the wrong! Just getting that out there! 😮

After that ordeal was over, I recall the long walk to the restroom to change clothes. The teacher had another student…(I think) she was much older? Not sure. I’m 56; my memory seems to be fading! Lol —- walk me there. How’s that for a run-on sentence?

I’ll just briefly go over a couple more occasions that I’d like to forever forget.

1) Now, I don’t recall how the conversation started or even what it was truly about. I just remembered the long walk home.

The girl that seemed to be the head of the bullies said to me, “You’re nothing but a pile of s***!”

The following one has a little more guts to it.. lol

2) In math class, don’t remember the grade. However, that’s not what’s important. I remember bits and pieces of this…

During what (should have been a well-constructed classroom), most of my class mates were throwing spit balls, and other things (that I can’t remember) toward me. Maybe some laughing in the midst.

Now was it (really) the entire classroom? More than likely not. Although, it sure felt as much.

Let’s put it this way…it was definitely enough to cause a ruckus while strolling the halls of the school, for sure.

More Importantly…

The (substitute) teacher didn’t have anything to say; nor did she DO anything. She just gave me a smirky smile as I looked at her with, (please help) tattooed on my forehead. lol — I do remember the class was Mr. Greenwald’s. He was the funniest teacher I’ve ever known. He made the whole school laugh; and that was his mission…other than teaching math class, that is. lol – That in itself was an awesome memory! I did a quick search and found a photo of him. However, don’t feel at liberty to share due to copyright. 😉

3) Not to mention (and in general), being made fun of for not making all the hits, catches, reps; or whatever while in gym class and on the playground That’s the true reason why I don’t like to participate in sports…(other than power walking and aerobics) 😉 lol

The latter is so common; I know. However, it didn’t make it any easier! Furthermore, it all stacked up to how I’ve felt about (myself) for most of my life.

I dreadfully recall these memories of bullying as; humbling, ugly, disgraceful, abusive, slanderous, degrading, disrespectful, painful, hurtful, and quite life-changing.

I truly could go on and on; however, I won’t bore you with more. I think you get the picture! LOL

You know…way, way back in my mind (for many, many years), I would always question myself how I could let the world know how bullying truly affected me. Go into detail, like in this post. Did I want (or NEED) to go as far as actually naming names? Naah!! That minor detail is rather pointless.

I wrote this blog post as if I were THE ONLY person on the face of the earth that was mindlessly bullied. Well, let me fill you in on something….that’s exactly what it felt like. The pain was real, and it scarred me for life.

In hindsight, I’m somewhat grateful for having gone through it; (only due) to the fact that it helped mold me (somehow) into the person that I am. I also, realize this post may be pointless to a lot of people. I honestly needed to write it; if not for anything else but, for some sort of therapy. Aka; focus on internal daemons for clarity and peace.

Thank God for the wisdom from my years of living…that I truly understand the (real) reason behind children, (or adults), that feel the need to bully others.

I’ll just leave it at that…

Thank you for reading! =) <3

Bible Scriptures For The Week: The Commandments And Wisdom

 

 

Hi there 🙂

 

 

 

This week I’ve been reading on the commandments and wisdom. =)

 

 

 

Psalm 111:10

 

 

 

The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom: a good understanding have all they that do his commandments: his praise endureth for ever.

 

 

Proverbs 6

 

 

1 My son, if thou be surety for thy friend, if thou hast stricken thy hand with a stranger,

 

2 Thou art snared with the words of thy mouth, thou art taken with the words of thy mouth.

 

3 Do this now, my son, and deliver thyself, when thou art come into the hand of thy friend; go, humble thyself, and make sure thy friend.

 

4 Give not sleep to thine eyes, nor slumber to thine eyelids.

 

5 Deliver thyself as a roe from the hand of the hunter, and as a bird from the hand of the fowler.

 

6 Go to the ant, thou sluggard; consider her ways, and be wise:

 

7 Which having no guide, overseer, or ruler,

 

8 Provideth her meat in the summer, and gathereth her food in the harvest.

 

9 How long wilt thou sleep, O sluggard? when wilt thou arise out of thy sleep?

 

10 Yet a little sleep, a little slumber, a little folding of the hands to sleep:

 

11 So shall thy poverty come as one that travelleth, and thy want as an armed man.

 

12 A naughty person, a wicked man, walketh with a froward mouth.

 

13 He winketh with his eyes, he speaketh with his feet, he teacheth with his fingers;

 

14 Frowardness is in his heart, he deviseth mischief continually; he soweth discord.

 

15 Therefore shall his calamity come suddenly; suddenly shall he be broken without remedy.

 

16 These six things doth the LORD hate: yea, seven are an abomination unto him:

 

17 A proud look, a lying tongue, and hands that shed innocent blood,

 

18 An heart that deviseth wicked imaginations, feet that be swift in running to mischief,

 

19 A false witness that speaketh lies, and he that soweth discord among brethren.

 

20 My son, keep thy father’s commandment, and forsake not the law of thy mother:

 

21 Bind them continually upon thine heart, and tie them about thy neck.

 

22 When thou goest , it shall lead thee; when thou sleepest , it shall keep thee; and when thou awakest , it shall talk with thee.

 

23 For the commandment is a lamp;

 

and the law is light; and reproofs of instruction are the way of life

 

 

 

 

Wisdom

 

“For wisdom is a safeguard, as money is a safeguard,
but the excellency of knowledge is that wisdom giveth life
to them that have it.”
Ecclesiastes 7:12

 

 


“Teach me good discernment and knowledge,
For I believe in Your commandments.”
Psalms 119:66

 

 

“The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge;
Fools despise wisdom and instruction.”
Proverbs 1:7

 

 

“For the LORD gives wisdom;From His mouth come knowledge and understanding.”
Proverbs 2:6

 

 

 

The Proverbs 4

 

 

The Beneficence of Wisdom

 


1

Hear, ye children, the instruction of a father,

and attend to know understanding.

2

For I give you good doctrine,

forsake ye not my law.

3

For I was my father’s son,

tender and only beloved in the sight of my mother.

4

He taught me also, and said unto me,

Let thine heart retain my words:
keep my commandments, and live.

5

Get wisdom, get understanding:

forget it not; neither decline from the words of my mouth.

6

Forsake her not, and she shall preserve thee:

love her, and she shall keep thee.

7

Wisdom is the principal thing;

thereforeget wisdom:
and with all thy getting get understanding.

8

Exalt her, and she shall promote thee:

she shall bring thee to honor, when thou dost embrace her.

9

She shall give to thine head an ornament of grace:

a crown of glory shall she deliver to thee.

10

Hear, O my son, and receive my sayings;

and the years of thy life shall be many.

11

I have taught thee in the way of wisdom;

I have led thee in right paths.

12

When thou goest, thy steps shall not be straitened;

and when thou runnest, thou shalt not stumble.

13

Take fast hold of instruction;

let her not go:
keep her; for she is thy life.

14

Enter not into the path of the wicked,

and go not in the way of evil men.

15

Avoid it, pass not by it,

turn from it, and pass away.

16

For they sleep not, except they have done mischief;

and their sleep is taken away, unless they cause some to fall.

17

For they eat the bread of wickedness,

and drink the wine of violence.

18

But the path of the just is as the shining light,

that shineth more and more unto the perfect day.

19

The way of the wicked is as darkness:

they know not at what they stumble.

20

My son, attend to my words;

incline thine ear unto my sayings.

21

Let them not depart from thine eyes;

keep them in the midst of thine heart.

22

For they are life unto those that find them,

and health to all their flesh.

23

Keep thy heart with all diligence;

for out of it are the issues of life.

24

Put away from thee a froward mouth,

and perverse lips put far from thee.

25

Let thine eyes look right on,

and let thine eyelids look straight before thee.

26

Ponder the path of thy feet, Heb. 12.13

and let all thy ways be established.

27

Turn not to the right hand nor to the left:

remove thy foot from evil.

 

God Bless you this week! 🙂